trying to maintain but i’m struggling
it has been so nice to have company on days off work it really makes me dread work sometimes.. i am currently in a very blah mood… u_u
current mood: n un
i had a rather social day today. had break w/ jodie, ate lunch w/ jason @ a tea place where coffee was $1 & it ended up smelling like shit…. met up w/ jodie again & drove around walnut/rowland then met up w/ megan & the 3 of us just chilled… did nothing but it was still fun~ work now ;_;
pissed off by the most minute of things
sometimes i get annoyed when people ask me why i like to dress up for school. for shopping. almost everything.. i don’t know what the universal definition of dressing up is but dressing up and dressing well (?) are NOT the same, i think. i believe i spend as little time choosing an outfit as anyone else, thank you very much. and why can’t i wear this jacket under another with a shirt...
went to school, slept in music, slept in car, read lovely bones, skipped sociology, went home… alex’s birthday today, we went to what used to be ucc cafe & ate some odd, overly priced dishes but the tiramisu we got in the end was heeeaaavennnn… i can’t even describe. then we played at the pathfinder park in the rain which was so unromantic LOL. it really feels like we...
i decided to get a bracelet today, after alice mentioned that the girl who works at the restaurant we went to recently had a bracelet at her arm! and i aspire to one day have this bracelet fit above my elbow as well. so i deem this circle of cheap metal my fat bracelet. well my fat bracelet almost killed me today. already. cause i put it about mid-way up my lower arm and then when i was serving...
a happy(ish.. kinda sorta teensy bit) jodie when we were doing her math hw colorful yogurt @ yogurtland my blaire waldorf look :-) of course, she doesn’t have my facial imperfections… called my face a face i made out of pistachio nuts in anthropology… i would’ve done worse like taken the eyes & made goggles out of them but like you guys know, i got a reputation...
all i wanted to do when i got home from work was jump into the couch and drown in the pile of blankets i strategically placed in the afternoon. much to my despair, when i open the door i see another person where i was supposed to be. THIS WAS THE TIPPING POINT. *dundundun* here’s to hoping no one reads this. there’s so many things i’m hating about life right now, and this is...
1) music (sleep) 2) study anthro, sleep in car, worry about friend’s absence 3) sociology (finished documentary “the farm” about the guys in angola prison. i didn’t watch the end because i cried so much in the beginning with the dude whose pardon was rejected and the cutie pie old man with lung cancer preaching to his friends, i knew i’d sob if the last guy on...
message from my paranoia
i need to stop complaining about people never talking back to me when i randomly approach them because today i realized it actually kinda freaks me out when my forwardness brings out actual responses from the other party (haha, i sound so fake smart). i was at fresh & easy afterschool like always & at the sale section, there's this guy standing there & this convo emerges-
me: COOL, there's so many things here today!
him: big sandwich
me: i'm so excited!
him: about the big sandwich?
me: no, there's a lot of stuff here...
him: i go for the big sandwiches. you know what they say about big things?
him: what'd you say?
me: HAHAHAH YEA, cool! bye!
i walk away quickly & he proceeds to follow me
him: HEY! WHERE DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL? Mt sac?
me: herherhher YEAaaannnoo....
FUCKINNNNGGGGGSHIT! then i start to sprint away from this big, black dude that actually had the nerve to talk to me. and now i fear for my life at home, school and beyond. sure, he might just be a friendly, harmless chap but my brain refuses to accept that. which reminds me of the time i was at fresh and easy and i decided to talk about the different bags of popcorn to these other 2 fattish redneck/indian guys who also found incentive to follow me around the supermarket as well.. i guesss... damn, i have GOT to stop talking to strangers.
pretty~ all images from weheartit HNEHEhehnehAHENhe
i hate school still and forever and ever =( mostly because i’m lazy and i forget to do my homework. i wish i was a lovable bumpkin (i have no clue what that means) that everyone liked so i could have friends forever. and ever. well no.. even for a temporary point in my life (i.e. that class period) would be nice but unfortunately, i am just the lonesome asian girl that squats in the...
yesterday was thursday where i had school and it was creepy and such as usual. ate lunch w/ jason & alice then went home. went to work. accidentally calculated the september special instead of the october. ;( went to stacys house. we were gna watch burn after reading but i fell asleep waiting for her to shower. today was friday and i woke up after a weird dream about a department store,...